So Hard

I have no idea how Natalie Maines got inside of a closeted married man's head, but she did. Tweaking only a few words, these lyrics exactly describe how I feel in regards to my marriage. Yes, I'm aware how very 16 of me this is. Bite me.

And yes, I'm aware of the double meaning of the lyrics...it's SO HARD when it doesn't CUM easy....yar har har. Let's all grow up now. ;-)

"So Hard"

Back when we started
We didn't know how hard it was
Living on nothing
But what the wind would bring to us

Now we've got something I can imagine fighting for
So why is fighting myself all that I'm good at anymore?

And sometimes I don't have the energy
To prove everybody wrong
And I try my best to be strong
But you know it's so hard

It's so hard

It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard when it doesn't come fast
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard

It felt like a given
Something that I was born to do
A natural ambition
To see a reflection of me and you

And I'd feel so guilty
If that was a gift I couldn't give
And could you be happy
If life wasn't how we pictured it?

And sometimes I just want to wait it out
To prove everybody wrong
And I need your help to move on Cause you know it's so hard

It's so hard

It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard when it doesn't come fast
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
So hard

I live for the moment
When all these clouds open up for me to see
And show me a vision
Of you and me swimming peacefully

Last night I realized
That I can't remember
How to feel free

It's so hard.